Jane

Yesterday we got some good news about Jane. Logically I understand that things take time and that the incremental progress is great. My heart just doesn't seem to agree yet. I keep thinking how hard it is for Jane right now. How things aren't even close to ok.

Don't get me wrong, I understand that she has an excellent chance to get better and it will be hard but it is achievable. Yes, she is better than a few days ago. I understand and believe me I am so so so grateful. It's just that things really really suck for Jane right now and I just want her to be whole again NOW. Not in 4-6 months, not 1-2 years, NOW.

I hate that she is up in that hospital and can't function properly. I hate that she lost 4 days to sedation (yes, I get it was necessary but I don't have to like it). It hurts to go to work and to keep going on with life with her not able to do the same. She hasn't cuddled with her pets in 10 days now (yes, I counted!).

From Jane

From Jane

I am going to leave a link to the updates for Jane's progress on my blog link list to the right here if anyone wants to check on her. After reading some of this, maybe my thoughts are a bit too private for this blog.